天津爆炸一名牺牲消防员母亲借试管婴儿再怀孕(转载)

　　如今，毁于“8·12”天津港爆炸事故的八大街中队营房已被修缮一新；除了尚在医院的三四位战友，比如腿部动了18次手术的刘广宾、脸部严重毁容等待植皮的班长毛青等，痊愈的人陆续回到中队，重新开始值勤。

　　Today, was destroyed by the \"8 · 12\" tianjin explosion accident squadron of eight street barracks have been fix up; In addition to ask gusts of workers is still in hospital, such as the legs moved 18 surgeries Liu Guangbin, severe facial disfigurement monitor Mao Qing waiting for graft, etc., the recovery have returned to the squadron, start on duty.

　　而对于蔡家远的妈妈刘云爱来说，她也重新有了新的希望——孕育一个新生命，把儿子，找回来。

　　For CAI home far mother Liu Yunai, she also to have a new hope, gave birth to a new life, the son, and back.

　　2016年1月17日，吃过午饭，刘云爱在火炉边取暖，和张梦凡聊天。陡然间，她抛出一个让张梦凡百感交集的消息：“我怀孕了，有两个月了。今年6月底或者7月初，孩子就出生了。”

　　On January 17, 2016, after lunch, Liu Yunai by the fire to keep warm, and Zhang Mengfan chat. Suddenly shot, she throws a let feelings Zhang Mengfan news: \"I'm pregnant, has for two months. At the end of June or early July, the child was born.\"

　　张梦凡起先没听清，接着张大嘴巴，扶着刘云爱的手说：“太好了阿姨！等到宝宝出生了，我再来看你！”

　　Zhang Mengfan didn't catch at first, and then opened his mouth, holding Liu Yunai hand and said: \"good aunt! Wait for the birth, I come to see you again!\"

　　在这次探望中，记者了解到，尝试做试管婴儿的八大街中队牺牲消防员的父母，不止蔡家这一例。

　　During the visit, the reporter understands, try to do test-tube baby eight street squadron sacrifices firefighters parents, CAI home more than this one.

　　母亲决定要把儿子找回来。哪怕高龄，哪怕只有5%的概率。

　　Mother decided to take my son back. Even older, even if the probability of only 5%.

　　刘云爱说，不止一次地，站在安置宾馆的十几层楼上。她想过，一头撞去找儿子。

　　Liu Yunai, said more than once, stood in more than ten floor of the hotel. She thought, a head of bump for the son.

　　离开天津的前一夜，医生给她打了针，几夜未合眼的她沉沉地睡着了。那晚，她第一次梦到儿子，“他躺在救护车上，没穿衣服。他说，妈妈我好冷。他那么瘦小，我总担心会有人欺负他……”

　　Left tianjin the night before, the doctor gave her a needle, into a few nights without sleep, she fell asleep. That night, for the first time she dreamed of the son, \"he was lying in the ambulance, wearing no clothes. He said, mother I good cold. He was so small, I always worry about someone bullied him...\"

　　刘云爱说，还在天津时，有个心理医生劝她，“大姐，你还年轻，你的儿子一定能找回来。”

　　Liu Yunai said, also in tianjin, has a psychological doctor advised her, \"elder sister, you're young, your son will be back.\"

　　她才想起，村里有户人家去长沙做了试管婴儿，如今孩子已经10岁了。“把儿子找回来”——这个念头在刘云爱的心里越发清晰。

　　She remembered that, there is a family in the village of changsha to do the test tube baby, now the child is ten years old. \"Her son back\" - the idea in the mind of Liu Yunai increasingly clear.

　　2015年9月12日，蔡来元尚在处理儿子的后事，刘云爱只身一人来到长沙的医院。第一次检查时，高龄的刘云爱，让医生吃惊。

　　On September 12, 2015, CAI yuan is still in the treatment of the son's affairs, Liu Yunai hospital alone came to changsha. Check for the first time, older Liu Yunai, surprised the doctor.

　　她问刘云爱：“有过孩子吗？”

　　She asked Liu Yunai: \"have children?\"

　　刘云爱说：“我有过一个女儿一个儿子。”

　　Liu Yunai said: \"I have a daughter, a son.\"

　　医生更惊讶：“那为什么还要来做试管？”

　　The doctor more surprised: \"why to do a test tube?\"

　　刘云爱说：“我儿子是消防员，他在天津爆炸时牺牲了。”

　　Liu Yunai said: \"my son was a fireman, he exploded in tianjin sacrifice.\"

　　那个医生一听就哭了。她说：“你儿子是英雄，希望你能再得到一个孩子。”

　　The doctor to wept. She said: \"your son is a hero, I hope you can get a child again.\"

　　医生判断说，刘云爱只有5%的成功概率。那些和刘云爱同一个旅馆的年轻小姑娘里，有人的成功率预计有70%，但花费20多万元，试过多次，依然一无所获。

　　Doctor said judgment, Liu Yunai only 5% of the probability of success. Those and Liu Yunai young girl in the same hotel, someone is expected to have 70% success rate, but cost more than ten thousand yuan, tried many times, still nothing.

　　刘云爱和蔡来元商量：“5%的概率，做不做？”蔡来元说：“只要有一点成功的概率，就做！”

　　Liu Yunai and CAI yuan to discuss: \"5% of the time, do not do?\" CAI yuan said: \"as long as there is a little probability of success, just do!\"

　　这是刘云爱一个人的坚持。

　　This is Liu Yunai one stick to it.

　　待在长沙的两个月，每天凌晨6点，她爬起来跑步，早饭就煮四条老家的野生泥鳅。

　　Stay in changsha for two months, at 6 o 'clock in the morning every day, she climbed up and running, breakfast cooked four wild loach of my hometown.

　　她听人说，这种泥鳅高蛋白，很补身体。怕影响指标，她什么佐料都不敢放，用白水把泥鳅煮得稀烂，再下一把面条，“平时只要有一点时间，我就去运动”。

　　She heard it said that this kind of loach protein, is filling body. Be afraid influence indicators, she what seasonings all dare not to put, with white water boil loach powder, again next to noodles, \"as long as there is a bit of time at ordinary times, I will go to the sport\".

　　八大街消防中队成了张梦凡一个人的中队。如果不是受伤，他本该和兄弟们一起冲进火场。

　　Eight street fire squadron became Zhang Mengfan one's squadron. If not injured, he should have rushed into the fire together with brothers.

　　那时，八大街消防中队成了张梦凡一个人的中队，不再有人招呼他去烧烤、踢足球，让他帮忙收起iPad应付检查，也不再有人买一大箱泡面回来，招呼全中队的人来吃；不会再有人说起那些可乐的事儿：火急火燎赶到现场，本来不大的火已经灭了；有人看到邻居家冒烟，拨打火警电话，结果这家人是在热火朝天地炒菜；没有人再去调侃那些“奇葩”的求助：戒指套进手指取不下来了；钥匙被反锁在屋里了；小区里的马蜂窝越来越大，悬在头上就像定时炸弹，只能请他们出动……

　　At that time, eight street fire squadron became Zhang Mengfan one's squadron, no longer being served him to go to barbecue, play football, let him help pack up the inspection, also no longer someone to buy a big boxes of instant noodles, greet the person of whole squadron to eat; Won't someone says those coke:bataopjcpz.com. finally arrived on the scene, was a small fire has been destroyed; Neighbor's smoke was seen, a fire alarm calls, as a result, the family is in the hot cooking; No one to go poking fun at the \"wonderful work\" for help: ring into the fingers get down; The keys are locked in the house; The hornet's nest in community is more and more big, hanging in the head like a time bomb, can only ask them out...

　　他一个人留在八大街，见证大院从一片狼藉到修缮重生，接待每一个前来的家属，归还兄弟们的遗物。

　　He alone in eight avenue, witness compound from chaos to repair rebirth, reception each come to families, return the relics of brothers.

　　我问张梦凡：“如果当时你和他们一起进去了，你觉得结局会比现在好吗？”

　　I asked Zhang Mengfan: \"if you and they together, and went in at the time, do you think the outcome will be better than now?\"

　　张梦凡说：“我不知道，真的想不出来。”他只知道，如果不是因为受伤，他本该是那26个人中的一个，和兄弟们一起义无返顾地冲入火场。

　　Zhang Mengfan said: \"I don't know, really can't think.\" He only know, if not because of injury, he was supposed to be the one of 26 people, together with his brothers threw into the fire.

　　那时，一个上午，同一个殡仪馆，他要接连参加三个战友的告别会。实在受不了，他径直走出屋子，走向空无一人的大广场。不等心情平复，领导集合队伍又一次走进灵堂，悬挂的遗像已经换好，“有时会觉得真讽刺，就好像上班工作一样，只不过对象是我朝夕相处的兄弟。”

　　Then, one morning, one funeral home, and he shall be for three comrades farewell. Really can not stand, he made his way out of the house, towards the empty square. Mood calm, leading collection team once again into the mourning hall, hanging portrait has changed, \"sometimes feel ironic, like go to work, only object is the brother of my elbow.\"

　　偶尔，他也会迎来一两位“不速之客”。比如说，代理中队长梁仕磊的未婚妻。爆炸发生近一个月以后，梁仕磊的遗体才被找到，像极了平时温文尔雅、不缓不急的梁队的性格。

　　Once in a while, he will have one or two \"uninvited guests\". For example, the acting squadron long beam shi lei's fiancee. Nearly a month after the explosion, Liang Shilei's body was found, much like usual gentle, not slow beam's character is not urgent.

　　梁仕磊的办公抽屉有一张批准单——再过几天，梁仕磊就要和未婚妻登记结婚了。

　　Liang Shilei office drawer has a approval sheet - a few more days, Liang Shilei married and his fiancee.

　　张梦凡说，那个女孩经常一个人来。有时，她会在家属院里一遍遍地行走；有时，她把自己关在梁仕磊的办公室，一待就是好半天。

　　Zhang Mengfan said, the girl often a person to. Sometimes, she can walk over and over again in families orphanage; Sometimes, she locked herself in Liang Shilei offices, a stay is a good half-day.

　　爆炸过后的那个秋天，八大街中队大院的落叶特别多，铺满一地。过去，是二三十个人一起打扫，有一些调皮的，比如说手脚灵活的蔡家远，会爬到树上去打树叶，摇晃树，而如今，“这已成为过去，属于秋天落叶的欢声笑语已经不复存在。”张梦凡在微博中写道。

　　After an explosion in the autumn, eight street squadron compound leaves much more special, spread all over the floor. In the past, is twenty or thirty people to clean, together with some naughty, such as hands and feet flexible CAI home far, can climb the tree leaves, shaking the tree, and now, \"it has become the past, belongs to the autumn leaves laughter has ceased to exist.\" Zhang Mengfan wrote in weibo.

　　这一趟收获了不少好消息，张梦凡还将循着花名册，继续一个人的征程。

　　This trip to harvest a lot of good news, Zhang Mengfan will also followed the roster, continue to a person's journey.

　　第一次取卵，刘云爱因为调养得好，取了10个卵泡，她高兴坏了。这10个“泡泡”被送去培养，没想到，“第一次花了1500元，5个泡泡全‘养死’了，我就哭了……”

　　First take eggs, Liu Yunai because good aftercare, took 10 follicle and her happy is broken. The 10 \"bubble\" was sent to cultivate, unexpectedly, \"spent 1500 yuan for the first time, five of all bubbles' raise dead, I wept...\"

　　剩下的5个，其中一个配出了还算不错的指标。两三天后，这个胚胎进入刘云爱的身体。这是另一波考验的开始：能否着床？着床位置是否安全？安胎周期如何？着床数周后是否有心跳……

　　The rest of the five, one with a fairly good indicator. In two or three days, the embryo into Liu Yunai body. This is the beginning of another wave test: whether the bed? The bed position safe? Fetus cycle? Implantation after weeks of whether there is a heartbeat...

　　和刘云爱挤在同一个旅馆的女孩们都叫她阿姨。那些女孩说，如果成功了，阿姨一定要给我们发红包。试纸出现两条红杠的那天，刘云爱给每个人都包了100元的红包，一下子发出去3000多元，可她一点都不心疼。

　　The girls and Liu Yunai is in the same hotel all call her aunt. The girl said, if successful, the aunt must send us a red envelope. Paper appear on the day of the two red bars, Liu Yunai package for everyone 100 yuan red envelopes, immediately sent out more than 3000 yuan, but she didn't love at all.

　　最近，刘云爱又要去永州做孕检。28天、45天、70天，这是刘云爱必须去检查的日子。胚胎不好，身体就随时可能自然淘汰无法孕育的生命。怀孕27天时，刘云爱流血了，复检起初没有检测到胎儿迹象，刘云爱急哭了，还好后来证实只是虚惊一场。

　　Recently, Liu Yunai going yongzhou do pregnancy test again. 28 days, 45 days, 70 days, this is the day when Liu Yunai must go to check. Embryo is bad, the body is subject to natural selection is unable to life. 27 days, pregnancy Liu Yunai bleeding, the re-inspection at first did not detect signs of fetal, Liu Yunai nasty cry, well it turned out that just a false alarm.

　　刘云爱仍然常常梦到儿子。有时，儿子还是入伍前的模样，周围都是欢送的人群。“他说：‘妈妈，我想你’。我说：‘那你为什么要丢下我，不走好不好？’可是儿子一指地面，说‘那还有坏人，我要去了’。说着，他就钻进地底不见了。”有时，儿子还是小时候的模样，她摸床上发现是湿的，就问丈夫，儿子尿床了？丈夫说，那拿火来烤吧。她挣扎着起身，一摸，儿子不见了，是自己的泪水沾湿了枕头。

　　Liu Yunai still often dreamed of his son. Sometimes, the son or the former appearance, surrounded by people farewell. \"He said, 'mom, I miss you.' I said,\" and why do you want to leave me, don't walk? 'son a refers to the ground, however, say that there are bad people, I want to go to the.' said, he disappeared into the earth.\" Sometimes, son still looked like when I was a child, she found touch bed is wet, asked her husband, son wet the bed? Her husband said, the fire to roast it. She struggled to get up, a touch, son disappeared, is his own tears wet the pillow.

　　刘云爱盼望着腹中孩子长大。她觉得，自己这么快怀了孕，一定是儿子回来了。她琢磨着，这一次，再也不让儿子走远，“要叫蔡家成，这次终于成了。”

　　Liu Yunai looking forward to belly children grow up. She felt that she became pregnant so fast, it must be son came back. She wondering, this time, don't let the son go far, \"to call CAI home, this time it was finally.\"

　　1月19日上午，我们离开蔡家。临走时，刘云爱和蔡玉连执意把我们送上车，还硬给我们买了车票。

　　On January 19 morning, we left the CAI family. When he left, Liu Yunai and Cai Yulian determined send us to get on the bus, also hard to we bought a ticket.

　　“这一趟收获了很多好消息，对吧？”在颠簸的小巴车上，张梦凡轻轻地说。

　　\"The trip to harvest a lot of good news, right?\" On the bumpy minibus and Zhang Mengfan said gently.

　　战友牺牲以后，张梦凡找到花名册中的一页，上面有26个兄弟的姓名、生日、籍贯、学历和家庭住址。张梦凡把这张薄薄的纸留了下来，“这是我们兄弟最完整在一起的一次了，”他觉得，这是他一辈子的纪念。

　　Comrades-in-arms sacrifice, find Zhang Mengfan in the roster of a page, there are 26 brother above name, birthday, birthplace, degree and home address. Zhang Mengfan put this piece of thin paper stayed, \"this is the most complete our brother together again,\" he thought, this is his life.

　　17岁入伍，从没出过远门的张梦凡，正是循着这页花名册，在退伍后踏上一个人的旅程。

　　Zhang Mengfan 17 years old and have never been out of town, it is followed this roster pages, set foot on one's journey after retired.

　　他没有想到，这个过程是如此悲欣交集。

　　He did not think of, the process is so sad of joy.